I Spilled The Beans On Radio

Have you ever been interviewed by Rob Kidd from 4MK?

He’s quite the talker, and having been in the radio industry for many years, he’s naturally very good at what he does.

We were having a chat during our time together in Jingle Jail earlier this month, and somehow the conversation switched from sport to babies.

The reason I was able to take part in Jingle Jail this year was because I had withdrawn from the Masters Pan Pacific Games being held on the Gold Coast that same weekend.

Instead of throwing a hammer, discus and other throwing implements, I was able to help raise money for Real Mates Talk, which I thought was a pretty good replacement.

The reason I had withdrawn from the Pan Pacific Games is because I’m expecting my first child. I blurted this out during my interview and Rob offered hearty congratulations.

It’s not my first pregnancy however. The last time I was pregnant was when I last competed in the Masters Pan Pacific Games, four years ago. A week later at my first ultrasound, I found out there was no heartbeat. A scan the following week confirmed my worst fear that I had silently miscarried. That’s when your body doesn’t recognise the miscarriage and you only know through an ultrasound.

I don’t believe that competing in athletics four years ago caused my miscarriage, but it was fate I didn’t want to tempt. Should the same have happened, I would have riddled myself with agonizing guilt.

I’m also a little further along this time, officially halfway this week at 20 weeks. So I’m due early April.

I’ll be classed as a ‘geriatric’ mother which I think is a little harsh, I prefer mature age. But many couples have hard roads to travel when it comes to fertility. I believe it’s good to talk openly and honestly about it, to reduce the stigma for those who may follow in our footsteps.

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